the aftermath ..

>> Monday, May 10, 2010

words as conventionally detrimental as these
ought to have moved you, as I set them down
the irony of their falseness do not touch me

I saw, I felt, plain virtues in a man, whose
miniature vices could no longer harm, you are
a daylight ravager, the robber of predictabilities

I remember our brief togetherness, undead child;
a nameless experience, amongst largeness usually
a void, an odor, dark and languid, the scent of

a passionate body, most of all, I reminisce over
your lies, which took aim, had no point, theatrical,
enacted on tiny stage, for a tiddly audience; you & I

living with you was never safe, I sat enclosed
in a mist of uncertainty, or else recoiled from
theories of conjugal bliss, which were like shrine,

smoldering with phantasmagoria, an alien faith,
its liturgy and rites abhorrent, incorrigible perversity,
whatever was declared to be truth; a shameful fakery

And now I know ..I am only bored ..

pS -

I really am bored with the way I write.

30 comments:

V Rakesh May 10, 2010 at 7:28 PM  

You are bored about the way you write?????? About the way you can connect abstracts with life and still make it sound so real? About the ability to paint stages of life that are totally different in mood and still symmetric? About the manner in which you can evoke emotion and still make it sound pretty much like normal?

I'm mighty surprised!

wildflower May 11, 2010 at 12:22 AM  

oh there is so much to your writing, so many facets. i read it once and absorb just a tiny little part of it. i read it again, to understand may be a little more. this way, i unravel the complex tangle of emotions that you had fallen prey to when you wrote all that you wrote. and i love it. i can never get enough of your words because there is always so much yet to be understood aria..never say you're bored.

yours is one of the two blogs i read..

Musings of a wanderer May 11, 2010 at 6:19 AM  

"I reminisce over
your lies, which took aim, had no point, theatrical,
enacted on tiny stage, for a tiddly audience; you & I "

I liked this very much. The boon/bane of a poet is to get bored and still write about it eloquently. It is like storing sadness in little bottles and objectively admiring the various shapes it dissolves to.

Quackster May 11, 2010 at 4:44 PM  

If this is boredom, I can only imagine what comes when you are engaged. Your poetry is always top notch in my book

aria May 12, 2010 at 12:08 AM  

Thank you everyone, for your kind words :)

goatman May 12, 2010 at 12:44 PM  

Well I think it flows well (I especially like the "tiddly audience") How expressive.
You touch on mood and emotion, never always positive and pleasant as we live on and in this life, and others'.

Bored? Perhaps add photos for trim.

Just kidding . . . . Your words need no graphics, necessarily.

Gyanban May 12, 2010 at 8:55 PM  

maybe you should try a different genre... that of hope and positivity..

aria May 13, 2010 at 1:06 AM  

Goatman .. thank you :) One is 'bored' sometimes of just about anything ..

Gyanban.. I can't 'try' to write. I write whatever comes to my mind and I think hope and positivity are misnomers .. thanks for dropping by.

wildflower May 13, 2010 at 3:43 AM  

aria..i so agree with ur reply to Gyan..!

Perry Strange May 14, 2010 at 5:45 AM  

... alien faith, robber of predictabilities--and I like your "delineation" of the void. It's hard to set down a good void.

... a little darker and a little stranger than the last one. If I had to give an impression--I would say a stream mumbling, somewhere, in a cave.

noni May 17, 2010 at 5:42 AM  

"the robber of predictabilities".......such construction...its reverberates for long time after reading...

asuph May 18, 2010 at 1:25 AM  

What a way to tell your writing that you're bored with it! Personally, I like this very much. But there will be these stages when we would be bored with writing what everyone seems to be enjoying/liking. I have no answers/suggestions. It may heal on its own :)

cheers,
asuph

parikrama May 18, 2010 at 9:15 PM  

For a change, you should write a blog on your encounters with Matrimonial website weirdos. That should take care of the boredom (for a while)

asuph May 19, 2010 at 4:10 AM  

lol, iw. looks like you're trying to get rid of your boredom.

parikrama May 19, 2010 at 6:58 PM  

asuph,

Boredom is one ailment.. I can never get afflicted with.

I am working for same company for past 10 Yrs.. Never got bored.

Working on same application software for past 13 yrs.. Never got bored.

Staying alone in an alien land.. away from home for 10yrs.. Never got bored.

Been eating potatoes 365 Days a year * 30++ odd years.. Never got bored.

And so on.. and so on.. and so on :))

aria May 20, 2010 at 4:14 AM  

Wildflower .. Thanks! I knew you would agree. :D

Perry .. Ohh yeah the void.. though its very much the same its tough to describe.. thank you for your comment.

Noni .. glad you liked. Hope you’ve been well.. its been really long ..

Asuph .. I am really happy to see your comment :) thanks, always.

Parikrama ji .. good idea but I’ve had such weird experiences that if I start setting 'em down most people would think I’m making it up ..but I’ll give it a try this weekend.. and then we can compare notes.. :D what say you ? ahem.. thanks for dropping by and for the idea to kill the boredom heh..

parikrama May 20, 2010 at 11:47 PM  

Now you are talking.. :)

Mere pass toh sab acche waale experience hein. I end up liking every girl that I see there (on website) . It's so hard to settle for just one. Har kisi mein koi na koi likeable baat hein. It's terribly unfair this whole marriage (choosing just ONE person) thing.

noni May 21, 2010 at 1:14 AM  

agree to Parikrama...really its sad/cruel institutional ritual that settle for just one.....they all loving and likable some way (not only website..everywhere)

aria May 21, 2010 at 1:37 AM  

I like ‘em all too. I mean the girls. Now don’t call me a feminist again, the truth is, most girls are nice. Its tough to find ‘one nice guy’! Pehle toh jaldi koi pasand hi nahi aata.. and then I find only weirdoes everywhere or perhaps such is my luck. And the sad part is, some of them conceal their ‘fakeness’ so very well .. I am sick of getting duped or maybe as my folks say I am way too gullible.. and men … sigh ..

noni May 21, 2010 at 2:10 AM  

on personal note...of course u r not feminist...keep patience..and don't expect "prince charming" ..(fitted one for u probably someone who keep a ocean inside him :))

aria May 21, 2010 at 2:39 AM  

Iam quite old now, ‘mills and boons’ days are long over so I don’t expect prince charming, for that matter I expect nothing. I find marriage the most boring institution. I don’t even care to marry heh :) however I really am checking some weirdoes out on a matrimonial site just to please my parents and what began as fun ..isn’t funny anymore..

pS – Parikrama thinks am ‘feminist’! *grin*

noni May 21, 2010 at 3:02 AM  

"isn’t funny anymore.. " got it..simply sorry..(realize mine was really loose comment)

aria May 21, 2010 at 3:15 AM  

ohh no, there is nothing to be sorry, really. I don;t think your comment was loose..
we are just having some harmless banter .. and I thoroughly enjoyed your part..
If you too have some 'matrimonial experiences' to share plz set 'em down on your blog.. it shall be fun.. having one more person in the gang to compare notes :D

Mr Happy May 21, 2010 at 5:24 AM  

i found ur blog amazing

Tamarind~ June 11, 2010 at 9:03 PM  

Its not time, yet! Go on!

adorablesashu June 24, 2010 at 5:17 AM  

Wow!!

Loved this!

shooting star June 24, 2010 at 11:01 PM  

your writings are so surreal, yet make such a connect to real life and in my case some moments/memories of my past!!!!....
thonmenc

therapy July 15, 2010 at 2:53 AM  

Many new words, and I spent time reading them, infrequent as I am, but so happy to have so much to read:)

Jim July 21, 2010 at 11:20 AM  

Hi.. Where r u?

aria July 25, 2010 at 7:31 AM  

@All
Sorry for not replying
plz read my latest post ..

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