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Unblinking faces, flat and numb, hair well combed, attire clean,
made for special customers , we are not displayed on stalls,
like posters adorning walls, advertising dentists, teachers, elocutionists,
fresh goods, recycled, from all over,
we seem freshly arrived or taken by some privateer.
At times our owners linger on the fringes,
shouting the virtues of their wares
to those who can not read the signs
more often, our posters do the shouting.
‘This elegant face lives a comfortable and gracious life
with their happy and healthy family.’

You’d think our physical descriptions sound like
Sunday customers at your grocer.
some probably are, I am one amongst many,
wherever I am. Getting ready to run.
Sitting on a gilded chair waiting for my bidders,
the icy demeanor not to melt. Through other windows
I can watch the show, shuffling back and forth, patiently,
everyone holding their signs to the windows, for us to see.

Some scurry over me in all fours, they pounce
I promise a list of referrals, photographs, records,
neither of us meaning a word of it.
I love being shocked,
growing wonderfully imperious and offended.
We meet often, exchanging subtle nods of recognition.
They keep fancying me as a runaway. My answers
to their questions are shapeless.
Nouns without verbs.
Lust. Desire. Connection. Weakness.
What I say doesn’t matter. What I don’t, does.

I want a man’s body, a man’s voice in the dark
I can not imagine a life with children,
in a house where I’d live and die, far from home.
I can not imagine building a hearth
that would put a soul in house shared with one
Not now. Not yet. I can imagine no future until I’d rid myself
of the pursuit of the present. I do go on.
There are a few people listening this time.
Its very difficult. You might try it someday.
Believe me, you’d sing a different tune
if you had to risk yourself; as I must.

29 comments:

ROFL!!! What a way to put the pun in words! Awesome!

October 23, 2009 6:26 AM  

very nice..............as usual ur all creations are great ..only thing its very difficult to come here and read.....i m missing u on rediff iland....hope u will come back...and my shyaris are also waiting for ur comments


Shabbir

October 23, 2009 6:32 AM  

are i posted a comment it didn't appear....whats happening......


Ok i will re type everything...


so i m saying as usual all ur posts are great..only difficulty is to come here and read...i m missing u on rediff iland........

October 23, 2009 6:34 AM  

Rakesh .. hehe.. thank you… I am glad you liked. :D

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Shabbir .. aah .. its you! I am sorry I didn’t realize.. silly me. I had almost forgotten about iland.. will drop by soon. Thanks for visiting here .. really .. I am so glad you still remember me. I have enabled comment moderation here too .. so they take a while to appear… :)

October 23, 2009 7:55 AM  

I can see defiance in some lines. Is there also a sense of hurry to do away with the present and break away to something utopic?

October 23, 2009 11:38 AM  

Aria....I can't forget ur wonderful creations...so no matter whereever you go i will continue following you......Thanks alot for ur wonderful comments. on my post. i m blessed..GOD BLESS YOU.

October 24, 2009 1:51 AM  

Wanderer.. it was a supposed to be a humorous take on the marriage market but there is so much pressure on me to get married that perhaps ‘the personal suffocation’ reflected as defiance in few lines.. so yeah .. you are right about breaking away.. thanks for that thoughtful comment. :)
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Shabbir .. the feeling is mutual.. wouldn’t like to lose friends like you no matter where I write.. I’m quite fond of some people there as well .. but like you it sometimes becomes difficult.. visiting so many different platforms.. however the effort is always there.. thanks again for your kind words.. best wishes to you too :)

October 24, 2009 6:01 AM  

hmm...doesn't work like that always

i met with a missy a few days back...arranged kind of set up...but we met both met at a mall...

was mostly jokes and laughter though...

a relationship can't be based on how supermodelly a girl looks or how much dough the guy earns...

its about two people finding if together the journey of life can be more fun than singular...

and the usual default...good composition...good flow... :)

October 25, 2009 8:10 AM  

Hi girl...tell us when you get hitched...would shed some helpless tears...and miss your flowing pieces... you write effortlessly. someone who churns stuff as honestly as you do is a man's delight...mark my word... blessings.

October 25, 2009 2:00 PM  

Sanely Insane.. so you too ? I know what you mean. I am not looking for a superhero either, honestly am not looking at all. Sometimes even when you know.. it isn’t going to work this way, you carry on for the sake of your loved ones.. don’t know how to explain.
That aside.. thanks for your words.. its kinda reassuring.. to find some people sailing in a similar boat .. I hope things work out for you. Wishes :)

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Impersonator.. hehe thanks a lot for those amazing words and your blessings.. I’ll definitely let you know when I get hitched .. its going to take another birth .. so those tears can wait for some time. :) thanks again.

October 25, 2009 2:03 PM  

hi.

this one i find little bit different from your other poems..personal yet more then personal and socially conscious..and attacking.
yes the era is more into buying or selling..salaried love .
a funny thing is "its about two people finding each other" which again hypocritical in nature, other is "nucleus family" where every one want their front door grilled and lock from inside...

October 25, 2009 10:04 PM  

LOL!
Personal suffocation?
:)
"can not imagine a life with children"??
perfect timing to invite you to read 'bou bou and golden flowers'
:)
take care

October 25, 2009 11:24 PM  

Noni ..@the era is more into buying or selling..salaried love . I agree! That was so very well-said. This is more like a business deal.. the way people assess each other.. its sickening .. thank you so much for that lovely comment.. glad you liked my attempt.

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MIP.. You bet.. it IS suffocating! And I like children .. but others.. you know :( and that too from a distance of few kilometers. :D Thanks a lot for dropping by .. just heading to your space..

October 26, 2009 12:14 AM  

And everyone here is for sale
With a hidden price tag
Buy now
And pay(the price)later ;)


keep it rollin;)

October 26, 2009 5:12 AM  

was there a some hidden meaning there or am i reading too much into it?

October 26, 2009 7:52 AM  

Scribbler .. heh .. ironic.. yet true :) thanks for your comment.

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Gyanban.. welcome to my blog(s) .. no hidden meaning was intended but I’d love to know what were you reading between lines.. ? :) nonetheless.. thanks much for dropping by.. hope to see you around again.

October 26, 2009 9:56 AM  

How many more days remaining on the "now-or-never-6-months" deadline ?

October 27, 2009 1:40 AM  

Hi Aria...You have a huge fan following here...am happy for you...


I understand the pressure @ work here...But honestly hope you get a wonderful partner...God Bless...

October 28, 2009 8:29 PM  

IW.. a couple of months more I think… but I am not that good with numbers :) thanks for dropping by.

Iris.. it took me a while to believe its you!! I am honored that you dropped by. You are generous @ fans! No one reads me anywhere.. hehe but never mind.. thanks you so much for the wishes @ partner. Do drop by again.. will be my pleasure. :)

October 29, 2009 2:55 AM  

As risk plays out life ensues. Jump in and test the waters with your whole body.
What do you have to lose but the full force of life itself, however it works out. And it will "work out" I suspect.
A wonderful set of words you splay out here. I likeit

October 29, 2009 1:16 PM  

A beautifully written piece once again and what a theme selected.Now, be a nice girl... put away that 'personal suffocation' and get ready for marriage...try it out man(don't you know that there is a law for divorce?...Just joking).

October 30, 2009 3:29 AM  

wow!!!..such nice lines on such a topic!!!....
very very nice

October 30, 2009 10:00 AM  

'Not now. Not yet.
I can imagine no future until I’d rid myself of the pursuit of the present.'

..any superlative i use would be an understatement.. so i choose silence

October 30, 2009 12:06 PM  

well this one was very different from your style of writing..i can see the pain and confusion and tension of a girl going to get married reflected clearly

October 31, 2009 1:40 AM  

Enchanted!! smitten!!

I can understand the pressures on you that it may lead to suffocation and that may incline you towards it coz one does get exhausted with all the arguments in the favour ... yet Aria I believe the one destined for you will walk into your life without anyone's looking around... and then all these fears will vanish into thin air...

till then gal hold on the fort :)

hugs

I cant miss a single creation of yours without reading... i am so bottled up with thoughts but I dont get the moment to pour it out but reading Terminal Moraine makes me feel so deeply in connection with my lost self :)

October 31, 2009 9:06 AM  

Goatman.. you suspect it will work .. :( I can neither hope it works nor the contrary .. it’s a funny situation .. hehe.. but then you are right about risk.. I've always maintained that its a wonderful stimulus. thanks a lot.

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Oldmonk.. that’s a wonderful thing to remind me of @ divorce :D lol thanks.. trial and error is the name of the game.

October 31, 2009 10:48 PM  

Shooting star.. thanks much.. nice to see you :)

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Wildflower.. thank you so much for your appreciation.. your comments are valued and so is your silence. :)

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Ani_aset .. thank you for those kind words ;) yes I intended to reflect general ‘confusion/tension’ along with that ‘personal suffocation’. Glad you noticed.

October 31, 2009 10:52 PM  

Nidhi.. I am so happy to read you.. I don’t have words .. thanks is a small word for all your kind words. I know you are around and understand perfectly why its difficult to post comments.. so don’t worry about that .. :) love you loads..

“I believe the one destined for you will walk into your life without anyone's looking around” I echo that! But parents!! Sigh .. but I’ll keep holding my fort .. :D thanks a heap .. *hugs*

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