monomaniacal

>> Monday, May 5, 2008

"Nostalgia, subjectivism, inwardness is in self-indulgent doghouse. You dare ask me since when? I want to sleep. And get that bloody light out of my eyes."

"I am catapulted through this static wall into a clustered vastness, the notional void of mind, the bright grid of life placing around, like an infinite cage. It isn’t an atmosphere in which an octogenarian (well mentally) feels sexy.. but I try"

"You don’t waste time of a dying soul with disclosures, confessions, repudiations…"

"You and I are creatures of subterranean dark, the mist and the cold. We are time-travelers and suddenly the past is alive, the dead start walking.. cracked walls gleam. Those unlived lives are just a keyboard away and we’re off to another search. You pluck a tread and it leads to.. everywhere...."

"Exulting in existing ..? still fairly fascinated by the drama of your own fucking self…?"

"Look, I too am partially obscured but I’ve arranged a little diversion. Nothing in the world is ever lost and everything is somehow connected. Plug it in, hit the key and thousands of others lost to us could pop up instantly."

"If you have worked in memory which is life itself there is no integration except in death."

23 comments:

parikrama May 5, 2008 at 7:56 AM  

Arey it's been 3/4 hours since you posted this.. and still no comments ? Sab ke sir pe bouncer gayaa kyaa ?

parikrama May 5, 2008 at 8:04 AM  

>> "You don’t waste time of a dying soul with disclosures, confessions, repudiations…"

Very profound.. and the least complicated to understand. To sum this post, I would say, this is exactly "opposite" of what one would call an "Out of body" experience.. seems like you have gone deep into the recesses of your mind/soul to come up with such complex imagery.. (Haah..! as if I know what I am talking.. leave alone understanding what you 'talked" ) LOL.. Before my bluff is called.. Let me exit gracefully left of stage.

Nash May 5, 2008 at 8:19 AM  

And you still say, you are no writer? Nice to read. Wonderful to read. But its too abstract. Perhaps I need few more reads :-)

Alok May 5, 2008 at 8:23 AM  

the last line sums it up .. doesn't it .... and it felt as if all adds up to a zero .. living in memory ... we all do ... howsoever one might live in a state of denial ...

i liked the concept of infinite cage .. couldn't have ever pictured it ... had you not penned it down ...


Alok


P.S. I can only picture notes to accounts and the constant search for its appropriateness the moment I read / hear the word disclosures ... even i am a monomaniacal in tht respect :) and ofcourse in other respect too ...

Casperbaba May 5, 2008 at 8:40 AM  

I m honestly at loss of words....!
dun know wat to say...
it feels like i kno the "you"!!
somehow....

aria May 5, 2008 at 9:23 AM  

IW.. hehe @ 3/4 hours. :) kya karien.. not many read my nonsense and then the ones who do(like you) don't comment ;) btw.. I've no idea what I was talking about either.. frankly I just wanted to post something and save anyone who stumbles in here .. from suffering my previous entry. :D thank you for reading (and commenting)

Nash.. ohh yes.. at best.. you can call me a wannabe writer! thanks much.. for reads and re-reads :)

Alok.. your comment reads much better than my post.. which also reminds me of someone who doesn't drop by anymore. Thanks a ton :)

Casper.. I guess.. I know what you mean :) thank you.

Quackster May 5, 2008 at 3:13 PM  

phew, talk about abstract. I feel like stepping into a conversation without knowing the plot lines and direction.

AshenGlow May 6, 2008 at 1:36 AM  

A bit arbit for me to fathom fully.. nevertheless a treat.. once again :)

"...Nothing in the world is ever lost and everything is somehow connected. Plug it in, hit the key and thousands of others lost to us could pop up instantly..."

Cosmic design?... I had once read about it in Da Vinci Code though in a different context... Connections may be invisible, but they are always there, buried just beneath the surface...

cheti May 8, 2008 at 11:24 AM  

kya kya likthe ho !

nidhi May 9, 2008 at 6:03 AM  

I came online after a good hiatus and something that I couldn't resist was looking at your blog which has quite a few entries..

As ever Aria you leave me completely raptured and amazed.. but I would appreciate if you break these shackles of the infinite cage..it is terrifying actually *sigh*

this entry has such beautiful imageries, very surreal - i loved it "nothing in the world is ever lost and everything is somehow connected" - it suits my line of thinking.

In btw I loved all the previous entries too, only wish they ended on a happy gay note :)

much cares Aria
some smiles i would like to send your way :) :)

impersonator May 10, 2008 at 12:27 AM  

"Exulting in existing ..?" righto! great work..despite the bouncer.

Inconsequential May 10, 2008 at 11:56 PM  

pluck a tread ?

:) I have OCDs ... can't help it.


I took all these as seperate entities, snips and snaps of partial pieces...

as for myself :)
still fucking nauseated by the drama of my own fucking self

Exit

Excite

Exited

As always, good to pop in and read...

Kunjubi May 11, 2008 at 10:40 AM  

I am addicted to your blog..Again the Midas touch, in every words and thioughts..Congrats... kunjubi

aria May 13, 2008 at 1:41 AM  

Quackster.. thanks for dropping by :)

Ashen.. *grin* @ arbit. I haven't read da vinci but what you say is quite close to what I'd been intending. Thank you :)

Cheti.. Issi bahaane aap yahaan aaye.. so it wasn't in vain. bahot shukriya .. :)

Nidhi.. I hope your health has improved and you've started posting too. I'll check your space. thanks a heap for all your soothing words.. they wram my heart . .wishing you the same :)

Impersonator.. thanks, nice to see you.

Inconsequential.. I don't know whats "OCD's" ? :( but "pluck a tread' was intentional.. no typos this time :D thank you for your comment.

Kunjubi.. thanks, as always :)

Influential Deepu May 13, 2008 at 2:36 AM  

after reading the name "aria" a lot many times at Casper's blog, in conjunction with free time I had today, I clicked on THE name.

and phew, this is high class stuff .. i liked the last line a lot.
But i think ... its too abstract ... like something is missing ... some more words need to be added ..

Or may be I need a couple of more readings .. i have pretty low comprehension level for high class English !!
Nice job though !! :)

(Btw, y do you allow comments only from people on BlogSpot? how about enabling the support for the rest of the world :) )

aria May 13, 2008 at 3:00 AM  

Thank you Deepesh. Welcome to my blog. I've seen you there too and have enjoyed reading your comments. As for this post, its something I would term a quickie.. not much thought went into it. I just scribbled few random lines that came to my mind.
Apropos comments - I've had some torrid experiences in the past with respect to anonymous comments so I am still wary of them :( but I hope it won't deter you from visiting me again. :)

Casperbaba May 13, 2008 at 3:04 AM  

its been a while now!

aria May 13, 2008 at 3:14 AM  

I know - its one of my trademark folderol phase.. so I decided.. I'll rather take a break :(
but so nice of you to check on me.. :)

Casperbaba May 13, 2008 at 6:09 AM  

:)
ur welcome...!
i kno this phase... pretty well.. i guess all of us do... totally respect it.... i'll b waiting!
rather anxiously!

New Buddha May 13, 2008 at 9:23 PM  

Aria, you title it as mono... but I see the bi.. in it. One one hand is the usual surrender or rather dry acceptance of darkness and inaction leading to hope only in death and on the other an insistence on a way out to further interactions, explorations, indulgences, some more excitement and more tribulations perhaps. So typical of you..I loved the fifth para the most..sounded as if I was telling myself..:))

Casperbaba May 14, 2008 at 1:58 AM  

hey, have done a small xperiment with translation of my hindi works in english. need ur feedback. does it work?

TheWho June 20, 2008 at 5:21 AM  

Responses to the paragraphs

"Sure,, you dont have to be so irritable "

"Hmmm"

"I've heard that somewhere"

"pagdandiyon pe chalke ... "

"Hmm"

"the bill is 80 bucks "

" there is no pride except in choosing your own death .. the dignity of that shall recompense everything"

aria June 20, 2008 at 12:38 PM  

thewho .. welcome to my blog and thanks for those responses :)

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